IT is late and so my thoughts ramble and I found in the past, writing helps.
I'm not sure where to begin, so I will begin when my head hits the pillow the thoughts that ramble. I worry. I worry mainly about the past.
I'm wish. I wish I could've done more as a mom. I wish I could've made every field trip, I wish I could've wiped away every tear. I wish that I would've not worked so hard and stayed home more when I could. I wish I could've worried about money less and time more. I wish I never would've gotten cancer.
It stole so much from me. I could've gone to more basketball games, I could've been tougher, pushed a little harder, but cancer stole all of that. And so for a few moments that night I will wish.
You will graduate in less than a month and as you will hear a thousand times "start a new chapter". I can only tell you, don't wish for the past, don't wish to change the past-- Did you know I pray each and everyday for you? That you will look to the future and make it BETTER than the past? I love you so much.
Yeah, there is a lot I wish I could change, but each day I pray for my little family and ask God to show me-to help me change something in ME -so that I can change something in this world and make it a little better for someone else.
