I feel like I have to clarify, the other day, E's class had a Mother's Day Tea, sigh. I couldn't take the van, still out of commission, more on that later. I knew I had, HAD to make it to this Tea, she had been talking about it for WEEKS. So, I called Bill, had an alternative and called someone else for a ride, no go. I ended up riding my bike, and actually in all honesty, I had wanted to try and ride my bike to the school. I wanted to see if I could do it. And I did. 5 miles round trip. I had moments of struggle and fear (I felt like I wanted to throw up before I even LEFT the house!) but I did it! How completely proud I am, of where I'm at, of how far I've come. All because I am TRUSTING who I am and where I'm at. God has brought me this far. I say that, because I couldn't have done this on my own.
Now then, Thursday, a break. I just wanted to take the day off, take it easy.
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| Not this most flattering photo, but A REAL one, for the person I AM! :) |
Friday~~ When we moved to Anchorage, I started taking Saturday mornings to myself. I would get up early and head out for coffee and garage sales. I came to this one house, a young adult and his mom where there. He was selling outdoor gear. A pair of rollerblades and all the padding caught my eye. I asked how much and he suggested like $25.00. I walked away with them and a dipnet for $25.00. I kinda feel bad now thinking back on it. Anyhow so Friday, I'm thinking about these rollerblades and decide, I'm going to DO THIS. And I DID. Albeit, I had E and her little friend on either side of me. I was FREAKED OUT. I couldn't even figure out how to stand, let alone...ROLL on these crazy things. Here I am all padded down, knees, elbows, wrists, and HEAD. We make it over to the mailbox (down the street and around the corner). E starts to rush and I lose my balance. I had a split second where I thought, "Ah, wait, I can keep myself up! Erg, why? I have padding. I will trust." I hit the ground knees then hands. Nothing. No jolt, no shock, no pain. I have to say, after that fall, I feel so much better. I don't nearly have the fear, because now I know. I know what it's like to fall, It's not that bad and I am still ALIVE. Ah. And here I am. I have lived to tell about it!
Is there an area of your life where you have been afraid to fall? Are you afraid of falling now? Did you put your knee pads on? Do you have support there to help you if you fall? (I ended up crawling the last three feet to the mailbox and pulling myself up) Have you already fallen and feel like this is the end? NO WAY BUDDY, YOU STILL HAVE TO GET YOUR MAIL AND GO HOME, NO OTHER OPTIONS.
Be blessed my friends, love you, love me, love you, love me.
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