Went to see my surgeon today and had my drains pulled AND my stitches out. What a relief. This morning I woke up and I was told myself, it's just a thing, it's just drains, and this won't last forever. It is temporary. And how blessed I am to have this procedure done and for an ending for it to come, and it did.
I had my very good friend B take me into Anchorage. What a blessing! She teaches me so much and strengthens me where I think I can't or don't need to learn more. It is so very hard for me still to ask for help. In fact, I still ask Bill to ask others for help, for fear of rejection I suppose. What I am learning is just because people can't help me, doesn't mean that they don't love me. They just are unable to.
I realize I struggle with love ones being sick, it makes me feel sad and weak that I can't help them, so I avoid. I hope I can gently and gracefully learn to overcome this.
In more exciting UP news, I drove today! I DROVE! I took my princess to school. It is these little small "normal" things that make me so happy! So overcome with joy, I can't help but share! Please continue to keep your thoughts and prayers for me and I will do the same. Love you, love me, love you, love me.
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