I have begun to read through this blog, this journal of sorts. And I cry. I cry for her, this woman who showed so much strength. She is wounded you see, she was wounded in this battle and didn't even realize it.
I stopped the drug herceptin in December. December 28, 2018. Exactly 8 years to the day I found the lump. I know I am healed. I know I'm done with that chapter in my life. And it is quite the journey letting go. It is a mind blowing experience learning THAT strong woman was me. I didn't feel strong going through it. It was necessary. There were no other options. Living every day was all I could do. IT WAS ALL I COULD DO. And now that I can do so much more, I feel lost. Cancer stole so much and gave so much, I feel so very lost in this survivorship. I do know that I will grow from this. I can ONLY grow. I didn't go through all this crap to just come out wounded and not stronger. For this minute I will read back through and cry. Will you read back with me? Take my hand as you did 8 years ago and we will journey through...
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